Please read this
2005-12-12 at 1:59 a.m.
Sex, something I pretty much rushed into because I wanted to feel someone loving me both physically and emotionally, is something that still makes me feel like I am lost.
I have had sexual assault after sexual assault and now I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I am damaged by the act of sexual intimacy. I never thought it would actually happen to me, until that day that it actually happened. I remember feeling so numb, so lost, so frightened and alone. I just felt like my whole world was turned upside down, shaken and then drown.
I have spent the last 13 years wishing I was different, I have spent the last 5 wishing I could die, but I am finally becoming able to talk about it and that is why I have posted this on here.
Something like sexual assault or participating in unwanted sex is something that will last with you until the day you die. I hope this has helped in some way, even just the most minute way ever, I hope it helps.
I have needed to talk about this, so, thank you for reading. You have helped my struggle. Thank you.
- - 2006/10/03
The V Word - 2006/06/28
Still a V - 2006/02/20
lying - 2006/02/15
Please read this - 2005-12-12
